Struggling to Put into Words

I've been struggling a bit, trying to put down in words what I have been going through over the past several days. I tried to write the perfect blog, set down something very eloquent, but ended up with a huge pile of nothing. This is how I end up with writers block, and I'm not even a writer.

So rather than try to force something through, I thought I would just write about not being able to write anything meaningful.* I think it will be therapeutic and hopefully not too annoying.

* The idea for this is actually something I recall reading about Bono of U2. In an interview he gave back during the Unforgettable Fire period, he spoke about this very subject. When suffering from writers block, Bono mentioned that he would being writing about having a block. If I recall the article correctly, I believe this helped him write the song "The Unforgettable Fire".

I think I ended up in the position not because I want to write the perfect entry, but rather I simply felt overwhelmed with what needs to be done. The informatics operations have been in place for a number of years and the folks here in partnership with Regenstrief have done some amazing things. However, a lot of basic infrastructure things that are so critical as operations expand were overlooked.  AMPATH is moving towards being a major deliverer of primary health care to a good chunk of Kenya. For the ISC to support that effort, requires that all those overlooked infrastructure elements must now be put into place. The only trouble is the AMPATH train is not going to slow down or stop to allow us to fix things. Work continues and all the amazing things are still needed.

So given this and other constraints I really got a bit lost trying to sort everything out.  Writing about it was too hard,  and honestly I just wasn't able to organize my thoughts in to anything coherent.*

* I think I had four or five drafts of various different blog posts.  None of them were very good and most were beginning to sound like rants.  There is some content that will be reused (it wasn't al a rant).

Today things are a little better, I was able to get some perspective and managed to notice some positives. So I hope things are again looking up. Take it day-by-day.